If I Were In Your Shoes...

Well, this is it! The last week of school has come, but there’s only one catch: FINAL EXAMS! I know, it’s a students worst enemy and people shudder at the sound of it. Each year students get anxious and just plain stressed out because this time comes (trust me I know from experience by getting snapped at by peers). Just remember to study and I’m sure you’ll do fine. I’m not worried and if there’s one thing you get from me is…it’s…um…final exams are nothing to be afraid of. As someone said, “Don’t be afraid of your fears, but face them”. (Sure it’s made up but deal with it). I’m sure everyone will do fine, peace out!

*How could everything be so unfair?  I feel like I can’t do anything.  I wanted to go out with my church friends so badly.  My parents said I couldn’t go so I have to stay in the house like a nobody.  Yet. I’m expected to be happy and smiling and saying “everything is gonna be alright”.  Why do I have to ask permission for everything?  Some people I know just leave the house, do their own thing and just say they’ll be back by so and so time.

Right now I am feeling so depressed and at times like these I need help.  I feel a pain within my heart.  At times like these, I feel my life is a storm.  There was once a song called, Stormy Weather but I forgot who sang it. It was
actually an 80’s christian song. 

How I’m Feeling: Stormy Weather by Los Latinos

“Up ahead there’s stormy weather, seems I’ve been here many times before.  Lightening strikes out in the darkness and then the darkness comes once more.  Just when I thought I cried my final tear, I thought I knew which way to go.  The tempest leaves my heart so broken and then the cold wind starts to blow.

Lord You, You know what it means to be alone, to whether the storm.  Lord You, You sailed through this sea of life before and I need to follow Your call.

Up ahead there’s stormy weather, troubled waters almost hold me in.  When these times have brought the loneliness, it’s good to know that You’re my friend.  Up ahead there’s stormy weather, oh but I don’t worry, I won’t cry no more.  ‘Cause You’re the Captain of this ship I’m in and You have sailed these seas before.”

*This passage is  from a young teen girl’s diary 11-3-1987-That’s a long time, but can you relate? Have you felt or feel the same at This time, 2009?

I was away on vacation over the weekend.  I learned to enjoy my family.  Yes, it’s true, I enjoy going away with them even though my brothers can get on my nerves.  Worst of all, I had to take along school work that was due today!  I held my own though and in between Disney World and checking out the movie: Wolverine: X-men Origins, I did what I could.  

We set out to check out the Star Wars weekend at Hollywood Studios but by the time we got there, we just got soaked in the rain.  It was cool though.   I love the rain.

We got to go to AnimalKingdom to get on the Dinosaur ride again.  My mom complained that it was too shaky.  I wanted more action but if you have never tried it, you must.  We ate and ate and ate and now my bellyaches.  I had to pay for it last night by throwing it all up. ( I know too much info but I can get away with it because it’s my blog. ha, ha)  Hey, did anybody else do something interesting this weekend?

We were on the “Holiday Road”

Dear El G. Nie,

I’m surrounded by the” hardest people in the world to talk to”!  It always seems like I’m being judged by the slightest problem I tell them, whether it’s something that happened to me or with someone around me.  I find that I can never really have a down-to-earth conversation with them.  That’s why I think they don’t know me.  They think they do because as my so called friends, they’re supposed to.  Sometimes I wish I had someone I could relate to.  Someone whom I could trust and confide in and receive advice ( not accusations or insults).  I feel like nobody understands me.  I always think I’m a mixed up person.  Sometimes it seems like I’m in a world of my own.  Sometimes I get so angry that I just think about things and hold my anger inside.  Sometimes I just want to cry because everything is so unfair.  I never want anyone to take pity on me.  I don’t like when people laugh about my name or make a joke at my expense.  If it’s funny, I’ll laugh too but when it’s just plain stupidity, I get angry.  Sometimes I just want to tell people off so bad.  But I never really could because I know that I will be sorry for it later.  Sometimes there is no turning back.

Another thing I hate is when people don’t take me serious when I want them to.  I also hate it when guys like you and they always bother you.  You only want a friendship and they want something else.  When they know you just want to be friends, they try to disrespect you and put you down. ( Always in a friendship with a guy, I let them know that’s all we could be.)

I’m writing to you because I feel like I could just get this off my chest.  Am I really all mixed up?

-Mixed Up Gal-

Dear Mixed Up Gal,

I can understand you feeling the way you do if you say your own friends are hard to talk to.  Thanks for taking out the time to write to me.  You need to think positive about your self and reflect who you really are.  You are not the only teen in this world that has felt this way.  Surround yourself with people who are motivators and first of all, feel good about yourself.  I am sure you have special qualities that set you out of a crowd.  I will be praying for you and your “mixed up” thoughts.  I am not saying that in a bad way but just know that it’s our thoughts that make us feel mixed up.  Feel free to write back whenever you just want to let things out and not hold your anger inside.  God bless.

-El. G. Nie